Moms thoughts...

So I have been sharing with Rob (dad) lately about how fast life seems to be going lately. The other day we went to Babies R Us and noticed there were lots of parents with infants in their car seats. I peeked into the car seat noticing these tiny little bundles. Some of them weren't even a week old. Some you could barely see their faces, some barely fit in the car seat. I remember that so well. The day we left the hospital we thought about stealing the hospital blankets to put around Brandon when in his car seat because he looked so small in it. Even though he was in there safe and all was well it just seemed that one little step on the brakes and he would go flying out. During our trip to the store and seeing all these babies makes me miss our little newborn that was only 8 pounds and so tiny. Don't get me wrong....I LOVE Brandon and how he now smiles and watches you with his eyes and is engaging. There are times when he just wants his mommy...I love all that. I would change nothing. It has just gone so fast. I try to remember his delivery and it seems fuzzy. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat...pain and all.
It is true that you totally fall in love with your child. Some days I can't believe we are parents and that I am a 'mom'. I keep thinking about growing up how I always wanted to be a wife and mommy and now I am. I try to suck it all in and love every moment but it is still going by so fast. Rob and I still wait for the doorbell to ring and his real parents to come and pick him up. When others are holding him and say, "Do you hear your mommy?" or "There's your mom." I look around for his mom forgetting that it is me. I can't believe that I am his mommy. I remember in junior high/high school being the typical teen getting depressed wondering what my purpose in life is and what I was to do with my life. Now that I am a mom and knowing there is another human that needs me is THE BEST FEELING! I never knew it was going to be this amazing. I love being his mom and I tell him that every day. He brings so much joy to me- even when he is sad. I love that he isn't sleeping through the night right now because I get to see him in the middle of the night. I have no problem letting others watch him so Rob and I can have date night or I can run errands but I do miss him during that time. I miss him at night when we are sleeping. I also love that Brandon doesn't care if my hair is messy or I have no make up on. He just wants his mommy some times and he doesn't care what she looks like. When he first came home from the hospital and woke at night I would run and brush my teeth so I didn't have stinky breath for him. That soon changed because I learned he didn't care...he just wanted his mom (maybe just for food- but he still wanted mom). All this makes me think about our next child. I know for a fact if our house size and finances weren't always an issue we would be trying right now for another. (FYI- no one is financially ready for a kid but you should never use that as an excuse). I know we want to have at least 2 kids....I am thinking more than that now. The question is when??? If we were to try for another one right now I feel like we would be jipping Brandon out of some of our attention. I really want to enjoy our time with him right now so I think it will be a couple years before our next one comes. However, we know there will be a next one (despite what I said when I was pregnant being sick and all). I know in another couple of months I will miss the time I have now with Brandon so I am going to continue to suck up what I can with him...every moment.
I thought I would post a few photos taken about 2-3 weeks after he was born. Look at how much he has grown. My sister took these photos- some of my favorites. Do you think if we decide to have lots of kids that she will continue to take all these photos for us?